NOTHING IS EASY, NOT EVEN ME

So no one said this polyamorous life would be easy. Then again, I'm not looking for easy. I'm looking for resonant, complex, tactile, varied, committed, honest, loving, creative, persevering, inspiring love. And so perhaps, having come to the conclusion that as a man of fairly advanced years (I'm 53), with a finite amount of time left on this earthly plain, I find it fairly incredulous to believe that if I haven't found my "soul-mate", true-love, one and only, by now that this may really be a possibility to stumble across a person that personifies all the dreamed of perfection and none of the difficult realities. Well, my dream girl or dream boy may not be lying in waiting. Maybe the lesson I am slowly learning is that the real living people in my life, with their uniqueness, their imperfections, their individual gloriousness, the way their eyes and touches and opinions reflect who I am, how we are different and similar all at once and how much it means to have such people in my life, is what is really the most important thing I seek.